Dear Reality Steve,

I hope you are right, now. I have been heartbroken since I found out that Brad picks Chantal but now that you have changed your mind and he picks Emily, well that makes me very, very happy. But if you are setting me up for a let down, you better watch your back. This is some serious stuff.

Thanks!

(Yes, I will admit it: I AM ADDICTED TO THE BACHELOR)

Just A Thought

So it turns out that our sacrament meeting is at the exact same time as Cora's nap time. This should mean that I could rock her and she would fall straight to sleep and I would be able to peacefully listen to all of the talks. UM, no, not even close. This means she is extra naughty & cranky. So it is rare that I actually get to sit through a sacrament meeting, and yesterday was no different. Between chasing her around and trying to keep her quiet I did hear something though:

"If you are unhappy you are ungrateful."

Ouch. At first I tried to justify why that statement wasn't quite correct but I couldn't because it is exactly right! So often I find myself "unhappy" when I have SO much to be grateful for. WOW. 

I bet no one else can relate to me, am I right?

BYU

Did anyone else just watch that BYU v SDSU game? Can I just say awesome? I was really worried about watching it but we really pulled it out! I am no saying I wasn't on edge the WHOLE time! Seriously I get so stressed out with these kinds of things; I don't think it is normal or healthy.

But BYU WON!

& Ben and I have tickets the the conference finals in Las Vegas! Let's hope BYU makes it to the finals! In not, we will just end up selling our tickets but I don't really want to think about that! :)

GO COUGARS!

February?

For those of you who haven't looked at a calendar recently, well February is ALMOST over! Um, that was fast...almost too fast. It means that in just 13 days my baby girl will be 1! It also means that I only have 7 1/2 weeks left of school! I am so excited, but really where did February go? 

And another month means that I had to clean out Cora's dresser once again! I swear clothes that fit her last week are now way to short on her. Every day my BABY is starting to look less and less like a baby and more and more like a little girl! Luckily for me she is still practically bald which adds to her babyish look. Don't worry Cora, someday you will have hair!

My child has recently become a terrorist! Every time I clean something up, she is right back to pulling everything out! Nothing is safe and she cant even walk yet! She knows how to open all the drawers, cupboards, closets, etc. and if I leave her to play for five whole seconds she is getting into trouble! AH what am I going to do when she walks? Lets hope that is still a ways out for us. I know most parents can't wait for their babies to walk, I am SMARTER than them.

Cloth Diaper & ThredUp

I am EXCITED! I (finally) took the plunge into cloth diapers, well I at least have them on order from Ebay! Why didn't I do this earlier? Oh I know--cause those puppies are so expensive! I know regular diapers are expensive too, but I have managed to get them pretty cheap with coupons so I haven't really felt bad about doing it. Also, I thought cloth diapers would be gross so I didn't really want to deal with that, not to mention at the time Cora was born we didn't have a washer and dryer. But now I am ready to do this thing. The diapers I bought were only $4 each so I am a little skeptical (considering many brands are $15+ per diaper, but they had great reviews so I have high hopes! Wish me luck!

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Recently I found out about this sweet little site called ThredUp where you can buy/send gently used clothing for kids (and it even has some stuff for momma). I got my first box on Monday and it was awesome! I have another one on its way that is full of brand new baby girl stuff with tags on it (great because Ben's boss and one of his co-workers are both expecting baby girls soon! Pretty cheap baby gift if you ask me! Anyway the site is awesome, you should check it out! I am pretty much sold on it.

The Answer to My Problems...

I think that I may have found the solution to all of my problems:

THYRIOD SUPPLEMENTS.

This may not be interesting to you, but for me it is some sort of hope.

Hope that I won't always be tired.

Hope that I will have some energy.

Hope that I wont have to sleep 12+ hours a night and still feel dead.

Hope that my migraines will disappear.

Hope that I will feel happy again.

Hope that life will be back to normal.

The only problem is that my doctor knew my thyroid levels were low months ago and never did anything about it. SO FRUSTRATING! But hopefully now we are on the right track! Hopefully things will be bright for me very soon!

Friends...

So I think it is about time that I get a few new friends. Sounds pathetic, I know--but it's true! Before Ben and I got married I was pretty social and I had what I thought was quite a few friends. The only problem was the majority of my friends were male. You don't really hang out with too many of your male friends after you are married. It just doesn't really work that way. Another problem...most of my female friends are at a totally different stage of life than I am--single. And the biggest problems many of my friends have moved away from Utah or are on missions.

After I got married I didn't really care about hanging out with friends much because I would have rather spent time with Ben anyways. Now that Ben is in school, has to study tons, works full time, and is training for a marathon among other things--well that doesn't really leave much time for him to hang out with me.

Sometimes you just need someone to go shopping with. Maybe even have a date night...Anyone that actually can talk really would do. But where do you find such friends? Obviously I have no clue. I thought that maybe I could find some friends at church but no. We are living in Ben's parent's basement right now and everyone seems to be so much older than me and also in different stages of their life. I can only see my loneliness getting worse in the next few months as I stop taking classes and really have no contact with the outside world. Poor me. Someone help me find some friends!

Skipper

I am a class skipper. There is no other way around it. It is much more desirable to stay home with my sweet little girl. I am burnt out from my 175 question humanities test. Somewhere I need to come up with the motivation to keep going to school for another 9 weeks. I can do this! At least I finally finished my 4 billion internship hours. And my portfolio. Thank goodness.

Now I just need to try to figure out what to get Ben for Valentine's Day. I have NO clue and I am running out of time! We are celebrating on Saturday because Monday is a busy day for us--Ben leaves for work/the gym at 5 am and I don't get home from class until 7 pm.

Also Cora's birthday is coming up soon. I can't believe it has almost been a year already. It goes by so dang fast. I have decided that she doesn't really need anymore toys (I already have a few toys that I bought on clearance after Christmas) so I am trying to refrain from buying anymore clutter.

Speaking of Cora, I can't leave that girl alone for two seconds. Yesterday I was making myself lunch while she was playing downstairs in her room. All the sudden I heard her pitter pattering down the hall and next thing I know she is halfway up the staircase (um when did she learn to climb up the stairs?). Well today I learned my lesson, or so I thought. When getting my lunch today I shut the door to Cora's room (there is no handle on the door) and went about my business. As I was heading back down the stairs what do I find? Cora at the bottom of the stairs. How in the world she got out of her room is beyond me.

All I want to do today (and almost any other day) is craft. I want to make cute stuff. I want my living space to be magically cleaned and de-cluttered. I want to skip class. I want to be done with school.

Today I will skip class, because I am sick. Which means I probably won't spend all day crafting, or cleaning, or de-cluttering. Nope, I will be in bed (for the third day in a row) not doing anything but studying for a humanities test. What a boring life!

Can life get any busier? I shouldn't be complaining but sometimes I just have too. I am so ready for April to be over and I no longer have to focus on being a full-time student, just a full-time momma (being a mom is a full time job in itself I have come to find out...).

My to-do list is a million miles long and I cannot focus.
do the laundry
clean the room
grocery shopping
bathe the baby
feed the baby
homework
homework
test
test
homework
capstone project
sleep
eat
run
play with baby
have a social life
date my husband
take a shower
get dressed
do my hair/makeup

Right about now I need an identical twin, or a clone. Either would do.